*2000-11-08 - 22:10:13*

Hey all you fabulous people...

Well, it's November 8th, and so far it hasn't been that great of a month.

First off, I receive the news that a good friend of mine tried to kill himself. He tried shooting himself in the chest. How he got a hold of a gun, I don't know, but he's in a hospital in NY right now. Sucks for me and my other friend, both being minors in NJ.

Second, two of my friends are in love rollercoasters. Both are on the downhill drop. I feel badly for both of them and there's nothing I can really do, except be there. I guess it's enough, but I wish I could do more. Things run a lot smoother without turnmoil.

Third, I tried out for the school play. Didn't make the callbacks. C'est al vie, right? Right. That's what I thought. But when the drama guy tried to pin it on the choir assistant, that made me mad. It's bad enough that I didn't get a call back. But the fact that he tried to pin his decision on someone else for fear that someone wouldn't like him...it's not honorable.

And that's how my life has been going so far. I feel like I'm stuck in the middle of everything with no way out. I should be happy though...at least I have my health...::coughs::

Opinion of the moment:
Yes, I do look like my Grandmother. I know this, she knows this. I'm not ashamed.

Signing off for now...

Additional:
I wish to retract what I have just said. I should be happy that I have my health. And a nice family. And I've never been without food in the fridge. And I've never had to worry about losing my house. And I've never had to worry about whether I *could* go to college or not, etc. As pointed out by a friend of mine. Her Mom is currently very sick, and she is getting sick. I apologize for being so selfish. Send hugs her way. Ignore me. I'm just a self-obsessed little JAP.

Additional additional:
Ignore those last 2 sentences. I'm a little bitter about some stuff I will not write down here. That's all.