*2001-04-20 - 8:38 p.m.*

Hello all!

Well, I just felt like saying stuff tonight. I had this whole shpiel about social-economic roles, but I don't feel like ranting, so I think I'll leave that for another time.

Hmm...I have no idea quite what to write about...nothing's really happening in my life. I can't say the same for some of my other friends. Lauren now has a "friend with benefits", Leah is thinking of moving to San Fran., and Lis is still in Europe enjoying herself.

Oh yeah, it just hit me that I'm giving up performing with my school choir at Disney World for my Chemistry final. Performing at Disney World. Gone. ::sigh:: Maybe in college...probably not.

I'll be home pretty much alone this week. My entire family is going to Florida to see my brother perform with the school band at Disney World. He doesn't have to worry about Chem. I'm not complaining, because it was either go to Florida or fail the Chem final, and it's a nessesary evil, but damn it! She *had* to have the final on the 30th! They *had* to go to Fla. after Spring Break! Sometimes life is not fair.

Enough of that. I don't want to think about it. I want the last 2 days of Sping Break to be as pleasent as I can make them.

And there is nothing on TV...

I shouldn't complain. Compared to some people I have absolutely no problems whatsoever. I should be happy and cheerful and just thankful to be alive and healthy.

Then why aren't I?

These petty little problems all mean nothing in the long run. Which reminds me of something Lauren said to me today. I was telling her about how I was questioning why I'm not "girlfriend material" (and I'm not), and she told me it's because I'm so open minded that I'm not afraid to be a guy's friend. Well, isn't that how most relationships start out? Being friends? Right? Or am I all alone in this belief? Whatever, I'm in no rush for anything.

Well, I think I've rambled on enough tonight. Goodnight all!