*01.27.2002 - 7:52 p.m.*

********: I can't take it anymore
SaphiraCat83: take what?
********: this whole existence
SaphiraCat83: existence can be trying
SaphiraCat83: but I wouldn't end it
SaphiraCat83: You've got a bunch of stuff to look forward to
********: you have no fucking idea, okay?
SaphiraCat83: no, I probably don't...I'm not around as much as I use to be...

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I'M TRYING! G-DDAMMIT, I'M TRYING! I try to understand...in some objective way I do understand, I try to put myself if your shoes. Sometimes, I try so hard, I make myself sick. But I will never fully comprehend what you go through. I don't have a broken home. I have never been told by anyone important to me that I'm a dissappointment, although Lord knows I've felt that way. I've thought about what would happen if I died...who hasn't thought about that, but I'd never consider actually doing it. "Live forever, or die trying." right?

::SIGH::

I try...it's the best I can do...I hope it's enough for you.