*09.04.2002 - 12:46 a.m.*

It's been a full week of classes, and things are going pretty well so far. The computer science class I was worried about is proving to be pretty fun. My Organic Chem class isn't so bad...and once I get the right books it'll be even better. I love my Chemistry Seminar too.

However, I am taking SET (Society, Ethics, and Technology), and today in class, after a full morning of classes, a headache, and a healthy dose of DMS (During Menstrual Syndrome), I wrote a couple comments in my notebook, as the professor droned on. Here's what I wrote, verbatim:

Tune him out
His words are nothing
They are trite and old and unimaginative
He's fallen into routine
Routine eliminates imagination
if your not careful.

Oh god...this is Athens all over again!
It's killing my brain!
Give me something fresh and new to learn, please God!
Another year of this is going to kill me! That's it, I have to get my brain back I'm not taking any more science courses then I need to next semester. I need to fucking learn!

Next page.

This is the dumbing down of America at work.
They are hammering cultural awareness shit into us so hard that we are growing numb to it.

I want new insights, ideas, thoughts, glimmers
I need change!
No change and my brain dies.
I have to get out of here.
I've got to do something different. Got to change Got to change GOT TO CHANGE!

I've figured out why I like comp sci so much. It's new. I've never learned it before.
Maybe I'll like it so much I'll switch to a comp sci major.
But can I really look at code all day? Will I want to debug 600 line sof code? We'll see.

Maybe later today I'll finish up those programs he assigned.

As you can see, I was, and still am, frustrated. Not at all eloquant...fourth grade reading level at most, but in the scribbled text in my notebook, my emotions are perfectly clear. I need a dramatic change in what I am learning at this school. So, my course of action thus far is too kick ass in my classes this year and up my GPA, and next semester, finish off my Chem minor, and take a bunch of classes that genuinely interest me, see which ones I like, and build my major around that. Sounds pretty good, ne? I hope it pays off.